stupid stupid knee

i stopped running a year ago because i messed up my knee. on & off over  the last few months i've gone out for a light run and come back disappointed. recently, feeling like trying again i went out and bought new running shoes. they're super awesome. so today, feeling restless, and needing some alone time, not to mention it was a gorgeous day, i decided i would take the first run i've had in a long while. so i put on my new shoes (which are black, and light as a feather) secured my knee brace, and went out the door.

a few minutes into it, i thought to myself "oh man, this isn't bad at all, i may have to take a couple of walk breaks, but this is great! i'm gonna be fine!"
i was in store for a very humbling experience.

after about 15 minutes my knee was hurting so badly i had to walk the rest of the 3 miles. i got angry every time i tried to quicken my steps and my whole leg protested. my pride bubbled as people jogged past me. and despite my fast walking pace, i began to get cold as evening fell around me.
all in all...i was a very discontent figure making my way around the rose bowl.

i got home and put ice on my knee, and it's still there as i type this.
i'm very sincerely praying that this isn't going to be something that will always keep me from running...because i think i would be kind of heartbroken. i miss it so.
oh sigh.

but WOW it was a beautiful afternoon.

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strobe lights and blown speakers, fireworks and hurricanes!

At least...that's what my head feels like.
To sound as cliche as the hills...it seems like only yesterday i started off my fourth semester...now i'm facing the scariest finals week of my life...next week!!! I know it's a silly picture but i'm very seriously apprehensive about everything. Thanks to an especially mentally tumultuous month i'm finding myself hopelessly behind...so i am very excited about the next couple of weeks! ten days of no sleep here i come!
I may have to take a couple of incompletes...which i'm not excited about. But i just don't think it's possible for me to do a month of catch up on homework in a quarter of the time along with doing my final projects. oh sigh...

On a lighter note, i've gotten some good work done...my watercolor class has been the source of a lot of that. (to the left...a crummy picture of a one-minute gesture) My "Alec" drawing is coming along swimmingly...lots of work to go, but i'll get it finished. I'm taking a picture of it about every 20 minutes or so...which has been really fun to look back on and see the evolution of the drawing. When it's all done i'll post some of the photos. (:

I went running over the weekend. I know...big freaking deal Colleen. Well it is for me!! I've been wanting to start up again for a long time! I even went out and bought new running shoes. And my legs hurt so bad right now i can't even put said shoes on standing up. Well, it's better since yesterday, but still. I'll be able to go out again tomorrow and very happy about it. really...i am...really.......

okay. I don't think i even need to say i have to get home and do homework, but i need to get home and do homework.

Ich mag allen sie...selbstverstandlich! (ich glaube das ist richtig...)

haha


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