hi

sometimes....God teaches you crazy things.

other times you go to Disneyland for Dad/Lou/Mr. Police's birthday...







thank everyone for prayers...thanks also to Kallista for her lovely comments she leaves me :)
things are just up and down and i'm learning a lot about my own faulty nature. and about other people. and why it's so important to be faithful to God's will...

yes.

i've got some fun pictures from the end of the year party at a bar in Laguna Thursday night. that was 50's themed. i'll put those up later...
also pictures of Sarah, Alec and i having breakfast and playing nintendo at Pip's this morning.

man o man!!


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portrait drawing i did in my very last class yesterday...

i'll post disneyland pictures tomorrow







i'm sad very very sad.

it'll be okay but right now i just wish Jesus would make everything go away
i'm hurting and grieving and scared. i shouldn't be...it's not fair to my Heavenly Father. but i'm disobedient and stubborn.

in the long run, that's probably why i feel this way.

Lord i'm so sorry.



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new camera!!!!!

So yesterday i bit the bullet and bought a new camera...just like the other one, but a newer, more improved version.
i'll be able to take videos again! and the pictures will be better!
plus the camera itself is just freaking awesome.
i don't think anyone has any idea how excited i am.

hence the terrifying picture i just took of myself without makeup, still in my pajamas. i don't recommend making it bigger, but it's up to you.


AND my family is going to Disneyland today for my dad's birthday.

let's just hope it doesn't rain...



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more from the show...

thank you auntie Robin <3





my beautiful muses...Edan and Ashlee...




don't laugh




what makes me happy about this last one, is that Ashlee totally wasn't meaning to stand like she did in the painting. :)



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stuff is happening. here are some pictures to prove it.

okay...here goes...

last tuesday
setting up the show...



























wednesday...The Senior Fine Arts Show...





The artist himself, and me in painted form...





















this picture both amuses and frightens me. just...look at it for a minute...


Memorial for Jeff Pan...



Friday...the last of the capstone presentations...














(pictured above...tiffany, mollie, melissa, edan ((dressed as a pirate, of course))














afterwards, some frivolity at BJ's...




























and the elvish writing appeared on the edge of the glass...


frivolity after the frivolity...

































Saturday i helped my friend Robin at the Mission in San Juan. She, my other friend Eric and myself ran an art booth at a Cinco de Mayo festival for about 4 hours. watching kids create artwork is one of my favorite things in the world. Robin took pictures...i'll have to get some from her...
that evening i got to hang out with Ashlee and Tracy, and i got to sing in Pip's show. which was pretty rad.
Sunday was church...
Today i'm at school working on the Nick painting some more...
then tomorrow is my last final
then Wednesday we're going to Disneyland for Dad's birthday :)
Thursday will be celebration day for the seniors, with a Grad dinner, then a 50's themed party in the upper room at Hennessy's...
yadda yadda
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Lord please give me endurance...!
there is so much i could screw up...
but i guess that's just the way it is.



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long sigh

so tired
of so much